16 Jan 1037

I dreamt of Domin when I had an evening nap yesterday. It was the first time I dreamt of her since she left. I dreamt that I had stepped on her little paw. I got so worried that I had hurt her that I woke up immediately. Stepping on her paw is something that we had done before – not intentionally of course. She is a small girl and sometimes can be missed if we are not on the lookout. She would give a sharp cry whenever it happened. In the dream, maybe I woke up before she had the chance to yelp.

There was a moth in our living room on Wednesday night. We don’t usually see moths around much in our flat. We wondered if it was Domin as there is a Chinese belief (according to my family) that departed loved ones would come back to visit in the form of moths. The moth was still there when we went to bed at around 2 am. When I was up at 7am Thursday morning, I went to check on it but it was gone.

I am not hallucinating but there is this piece of tile in the toilet whose shading/pattern looks like a dog, in particular Domin. I only realized that last night. I have since checked a few times – both last night and this morning - and the ‘picture’ is still there. I wonder why we had not noticed it before.

When will I dream of my pretty little girl again?

Domin's jie-jie