This week, I have been returning from work to a home without Domin.
It sure feels very different. Something is definitely missing and not quite right. The home is simply incomplete.
There is no one who looks at me with big round eyes when I step into the house. There is no one I can talk to and play with before I take my shower, after dinner, in-between commercial breaks and anytime I feel bored. There is no one I can cuddle and hug and kiss. There is also no one I can talk to about my frustrations and unhappiness.
I have not been in the best of moods this week. I am sad and grouchy and tearful.
It still hurts when I look at her pictures, when I think about her and the times we have spent together, when I know that we will not be able to spend any more moments together. I still cry at times – at home or on the bus to and from work, when I look at her pictures and think of what I could have done differently perhaps.
3 nights ago, a very good friend told me that she does not think that the pain of losing someone we love will ever go away. But she also believes that time will heal the wounds.
It sure feels very different. Something is definitely missing and not quite right. The home is simply incomplete.
There is no one who looks at me with big round eyes when I step into the house. There is no one I can talk to and play with before I take my shower, after dinner, in-between commercial breaks and anytime I feel bored. There is no one I can cuddle and hug and kiss. There is also no one I can talk to about my frustrations and unhappiness.
I have not been in the best of moods this week. I am sad and grouchy and tearful.
It still hurts when I look at her pictures, when I think about her and the times we have spent together, when I know that we will not be able to spend any more moments together. I still cry at times – at home or on the bus to and from work, when I look at her pictures and think of what I could have done differently perhaps.
3 nights ago, a very good friend told me that she does not think that the pain of losing someone we love will ever go away. But she also believes that time will heal the wounds.
Domin's jie-jie
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